How to deal with a break up?

anyone willing to read this and help me?





he was my first love and i was genuinely in love with him.. head over heels. i met him in september 2007. thats the last time i recall ever liking a guy... soon after i met him we hit it off, it was quick and sudden but we couldnt help ourselves. i was with him for a month, we had a little break in the middle of there and got back together in dec 07. we were together from then since two weeks ago. our 2 year anniversary was going to be later this month. everything was perfect up until about 3 and a half months ago id say.. and by perfect i dont mean we never argued. in fact we often did but we learned to overcome those petty obstacles and nothing could tear us apart. we just sat and coped hand in hand.





until a few months ago.. we argued so much the month or two before that it was unreal. we picked fights with each other for absolutely no reason.. (more so me, i will admit). we were sick of it and had a huge argument. being as stubborn as we are.. we stopped talking for two months, TWO MONTHS.. still carrying the label of boyfriend and girlfriend and being faithful. but in those two months a lot changed.. its hard to go from spending all day, everyday with someone to not speaking with them for two months due to stupid pride and stubbornness. he flirted with several girls, there were points in those two months without me that he seemed completely fine but he told me it was just a front he put on. nonetheless, things happened and after i finally stopped all of the nonsense and worked up the courage to apologize him and get back to the way we used to be.. i felt i couldnt. he agreed. i felt weird and confused about what was going on with us and a little betrayed for i dont know what. he really didnt put forth an effort to try to change that like he always used to.. so we just sort of started drifting apart.. he told me he didnt want to rush into things and call me his girlfriend again and that just made me feel even worse. he knew it did but he didnt say anything about it.





after a month of holding onto something that felt like nothing, i decided we should break up. he agreed. it was like talking to a whole other person after that two month long fight, so much had changed and it felt wrong. we didn't communicate the same way anymore, not even act the same way anymore. it really threw us off





now it's been two weeks and he seems fine without me. hes doing things he used to do with me and treating others how he treated me already. several girls actually. i feel sick to my stomach and if he does too he has a great way of hiding it. i feel miserable and disrespected considering all the time and effort and energy i always spent on him and only him has gone to waste. it seems it wasn't hard for him at all but it couldnt be any harder on me. how do i feel better? how do i get rid of this emptiness and move on since its clear he already has.. im a lost cause. someone help? thank you so much if you read even a portion of this.. believe it or not this was in a nutshell. thank youHow to deal with a break up?
It's hard for you to feel better, because you aren't. It takes time to. You know you've to move on. So have a break, relax, do things you like to do, make new friends, etc. Just do anything that can make you happy. Be confident of yourself. Cheer up. :)